Today, i had a big joke with one of my good friend..
But luckily.. he still with me but no gone away...
My surprising joke made him speechless.. lolzz... well... he made me suddenly think a lot of things and spend long time here to type all out.. ( my english is no so good , so i did spend long time to check dictionary.. aiks... )(p/s: I'm so sorry... i should not make that joke.. :P just punish you because your cancellation of our " important" date.. lolzz...)
Some men , do make me tempted, but i never want fall in love v them..
Why?
Because they gave me an impression that as a friend, a true friend.
I can talk and share about each other's career,love, marriage, as well as a variety of life issues with them very frankly.
In front of them,
I will forget that i am a woman and i will not be jealous, will not be so girlish, and playing tricks and mind
We stand at both ends of the scale. We can have drink together, can have meals together, can travel together, can talk whatever we want. Although, we wave at the end, to get for our own cars, to go its own way.
This feeling good!
I feel i have my pride.
That's why i prefer to be close v male...Moreover, many girls are trapped in the love situation,always talk the same topic and nothing more...
Some guys, just like with "warm pot of moonlight wine!" We can be so close and always so understand each other. Really, they are distributed by the vitality, deeply moved me.
It is undeniable that i like them too. But, it doesn't mean i have to fall in love with them. It's lucky to get a great person as a warm and ideal and wise friend in life, i feel happy now.
I was so fascinated by their noble temperament,
I would also like to thank them because they take me as " friend" too.
Not because I am a female, always on the sweet talk casually to coax me, or simply ignore me.
If, the pursuit of life's partner must also know each other and cherish them too, I really don't want to take these guys as a boyfriend..I am afraid that once a man and woman become couple..i will start complainting that he does not have much time on me, he does not send me flower, he does not call and text me eveyday, he does not say he love me..he rather spend more time for himself on holiday but no me..
I also worry that
he want me to accompany him only with a smile when he speaks in between people..I have no chance to ask questions, let alone put in doubt. I have no chance to say anything too, let alone put in silence.. End up, i only live for him.... live in his life...
It seems as long as the infiltration of the love feelings between the two elements, the atmosphere must be different case.
For example, to see a good film,
A few of the couple leaned in each other while intoxicated, still can sitting there and having discussions about the film? It's too bored for that silence moments...Moreover, once argue, even break up, which is more meaningless, love will be disappeared, and friendship will be disappeared too...
Say what "we are still good friends" , all lies!
Even if this is not wishful thinking to get a better ending, but the same aspiration of both sides,this aspiration is too cruel to drive themselves in distress situation!
If meet again after break up.. what can we say?
or just take each other like stranger?
To them, I really do not dare to be tempted. Fear to overcome the separation which is bad , just making an annoyance.
Of course, occasionally there is such a few moment will not help myself to show them i like them. He felt, I felt, but there was just only a slight feeling
When we look at the rise of clarity of the sky, and hope with each other selfless eyes, we know some things ︰ lasting than love, more worthy of our pursuit.
This tacit understanding is outside love, I believe so. Boyfriend or husband, is another closed and complete round.
For me , this round, may be the intersection, tangent or overlapping, even in another room also.However, in front of him, i still have to maintain a round shape, make myself a ball breathes with the frequency of love.
But in front of those guys,
I can let go myself and become the indefinite extension of a straight line, because do not bother to draw a circle, or bother to go and another with a cross-cutting straight line.
We are just running our own, attract on each other because we cherish same ideals, same goals, same minded..become two, or even a group of parallel straight lines,
Yes we may not belong to the same plane, but we know each other, visible, mutual support, mutual respect.
I rather need this kind of friends...
Love has many different names, one of which called ---understanding.